spillin some mo Budda


So i woke up this morning and had a long talk with myself...yeah i said myself. I just was thinking of all the stuff I have been through over the past year. I’ve had some real shyt happen in my life. Things like death, disrespect, rejection, total abandonment from ppl who I thought were family to me. Through it all I may have whined and cried about some things but I made it through. Like always I come out on top. May not be ballin or have a nice house of fancy things but I do have my self respect and my dignity for being a stand up person. I never wish badly upon folks but I do say God got me covered so anything u may think u are getting away with believe me karma ain’t no joke and u reap what u sow. I have lived a life that has been filled with plenty ups and downs. I have been dead broke more than once but rich in honesty and dedication and working hard for what I need for me and my kids. Never have asked for one handout that I didn’t repay. So why am I going through all this? This is why… my breakthrough is coming…indeed. I used to see friends and family getting brand new houses and buying new cars and getting so to say “ahead” I was envious but not a bit hating on their blessings. I know I will be alright with the lil I have. One thing I won’t subject my kids too ever again is homelessness/displacement, yep for 3weeks we had nowhere to stay but on my moms couch. So embarrassed I kept that between me and my close fam. Guess it was just a minor glitch in my plan to keep my family safe with a roof over their head. I took it pretty hard because I lost some ppl outta my life who meant the world to me. Like the good word says ppl come into ya lives for a reason season or to teach u a lesson…believe me lesson learned. As I pick my face and my head up from shame I look at things in different ways, “everything happens for a reason”. Either you take ya blows and fall apart or you pick up the pieces and keep it moving. I have kept it moving and my blessings are raining down, not monetary but spiritually mentally physically…I don’t have a damn thing to complain about real talk. I’ve removed a lot of ppl out of my life and a few more ppl will have their membership revoked. Im a proud woman, a strong woman and im not ashamed of a thing I have been through. My story will inspire someone to keep looking to God and not these clowns around you for advice, for comfort, for clarity. Money makes the world go round…but it doesn’t rule my life. After today this Diva (yes im still a diva) is hanging up her stilettos for better things…not looking back only forward to what life has to offer me. And thanks for reading folks…imma keep sharing it helps me to clear my head. Take care and hope u take something from this. ~Budda~

Comments

Reggie said…
Life is a bitch sometimes and it's true that adversity makes us stronger. I don't know anyone who hasn't had to go through something, even if it would seem minor to most. All of us have something to endure. One things for certain though Budda, that adversity always makes us a stronger, better person.

Oh.....and don't hang up the stilettos, just use them to step on the occasional mofo's head.
lol indeed Reg indeed...

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