I am so disappointed this morning....*deep breath*
I'm always praying for clarity and relief of the questions in my head. My sister is a messenger I tell you it seems like every time I'm going through something she shows up with the "epiphany" moment. What she told me hurt my feelings and also made me mad. I never intend to question things I can't control, but now i sit and question my choice of giving second chances when it comes to love. I always said I wouldn't go backwards and I stuck to it. Why cause the connection was so strong i had to see if it was meant to be. Taking chances is never my things.
Yeah some are reading saying "it didn't work out just move on", to that i say true but It doesn't work like that for me. I feel strongly about whomever i give my heart too. I take people at their word and acknowledge everything else by their action. I hate to be lied to. I hate for anyone to insult my intelligence. I'm no ones fling. booty call or dummy. I'm a woman with needs, wants and desires. someone will embrace all this love one day, but for now solo looks pretty damn good to me. It will allow me to shake off this feeling of resentment. I really need to be on a man-cation. I spoke with one of my ex-boos a few days ago and he said it like this. "you are beautiful, desirable, smart, intelligent and sexy. You are aggressive when you want something and you fight for what you want. Everyone is not worthy of what you have to give". He also said i was a woman that needs to withdrawal from the relationship spectra and really do some soul searching (he really said leave these lame ass nukkas alone and do you for a while you too fine for the bullshit) Might not be a bad idea.
Thanks for reading...i feel so much better and i haven't even hit the Publish button. HAAA!