Me first

through all the challenges of life i always here this voice saying 

"me first"

i was born in the middle

the upstanding responsible sister

there was always alone time

my siblings took up all my moms time

when i got lonely 

need the attention

she is the good child was spoken 

like i didn't need extra nurturing 

but the child within me was whispering

"me first"

not rehearsed

heartfelt but muffled

i guess the ones with trouble 

need mom the most

the day i became a mother 

was the day i stopped thinking of

"me first"

from that day forward 

i thought of nothing but whats best for him

i haven't breathed for me in 15 years

I've been mom sis woman fiance

but never "me first"

me me me ...i can hear it in my head

but that's not how i was bred

i hold other people feelings hopes and dreams in my purse

its never me first

its my fault no one else

i need to get back to my happy self

these last few months have changed my outlook

on everything

i have to put "me first"....(to be continued)

~Lykebudda2012~